You can call it the age of confusion (That should bring a smile to your lips) . I call it the age of confusion because I can't seems to find the right word. Does she understand what was called life at that time? I don't think so. She only knew that sometimes bad things happens to her and other times good things happens.
Then came the reality, that self-discovery moment. The moment you begin to understand what you can accommodate and what you can't. The moment you begin to pick out what you like and what you don't. It was like magic, she felt as though her life puzzle had been solved. She is now beginning to understand who she thinks she is. She soon understand that what she likes defines her and what she doesn't doesn't...
She will tell herself " I feel sad when I see people sad, so I am not who make people sad" meaning that I don't derive pleasure in seeing people unhappy". Again she will say, "I like when people are happy because it keeps me happy ." By that, she knows she loves to be happy and wants to remain like that.
That was quite easy after years of struggling with self-discovery but it wouldn't have been easier if not for the community that helped her in the journey of life. It indeed take a village to train a child. The community that constantly reiterate that education is the way, knowledge is light and wisdom is profitable to direct.
The community made a whole lot easier for her , books became her best friend . She found solace in reading. When she's lost in the world of books she sees herself thrive , she experiences freedom in a different dimension, she feels so strong and stable. She feels so confident and daring. She soon begin to unconsciously manifest the person she was in her book world in real life.
This self-realization made her blossom into who she is today. She is a woman , she is strong but sometimes weak, she is loving, she is blunt, she is caring, she is calm and also fierce, she goes all out for people but still feel like she doesn't do much. She has won so many times and failed a few time but it's okay, she is often misjudged but she believes in herself and now know who she truly is so it's okay... She can be stubborn and hard to crack atimes and other times she is just a cry baby.
She is friendly yet reserved, she has disappointed a few friends overtime but it never counted against her because of the love they have for her. She is disciplined and also compassionate. She holds the people in her corner in high esteem and will not trade them for anything but she loves them enough to let them go if anyone exhibit the attitude of not wanting to stay. After all, when you love someone, you free them , you don't cage them. You can't keep who doesn't want to be kept. You can't keep who doesn't want to stay.
She is a lover no doubt but she appreciates when that love is appreciated and reciprocated. Love is sweet when it's both ways... she believes. Though she loves generously but she has learnt to love herself even more. She now pay attention to her feelings more and protects herself from getting hurt. She is authentic . If you know her, you'll know this .Lately she learnt the simple rule of life:
Live simply
Care deeply
Speak kindly
Love generously
Cos Life is like a cup of coffee
She deemed it necessary to appreciate every single person that contributes to the person she is today. She doesn't take you all for granted . For the times that it seemed like she didn't do enough or disappoint you in anyway, she is sorry and wouldn't hurt you on purpose. She is still a work in progress and will make you all super proud soon but who is SHE???
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